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Honestly I feel the media has blown this whole thing up by a million. Yeah, I said some shit I shouldn't have about the movie, and most certainly about Sujin but.. ugh. I admit that I said everything that was quoted in all of the magazines and crap but I was mad. Most of it was complete bullshit, and although I despised the movie and the way it made me feel when I saw Sujin in it, I didn't mean for this to happen. I see my face all over the tabloids, and I'm getting a lot of flack from my fans about everything I said. I'm not the person I am being made out to be, and I still care deeply about Sujin and I have since apologized for my harsh words. Not only to her, but to the fans and everyone who contributed to the film. Apparently that's not enough and my words have burned deep.
I have really fucked things up completely haven't I? I can't sleep knowing how hurt Sujin was, her tears and face keep surfacing to the front of my mind every time I try to rest. She's not returning my calls, and has lashed out at me in the press.. which I understand. I am a complete dick for what I did, but I can't take it back. Believe me, if I could I would. Someone please invent a time machine tomorrow so I can go back and right my wrongs. If there is anything to be learned from this by anyone... it's that you need to be extra sensitive to what you say; especially when you're in my line of work. It'll come back to bite you, and you'll lose the person you cared the most for. Hell, you might even lose your job! Thankfully YG has been having my back throughout this whole ordeal and are sticking up for me. I am truly blessed to have such understanding management, and I am completely grateful.
Sujin, if you read this.. again, I am so so sorry. You know I need you, please forgive me...
In additional news, I am officially leaving Korea for a while considering 1TYM is on an indefinite hiatus. I'm going back to America to start to work on my debut there, and I am really excited and nervous about it. I'm not too sure how well the American public are going to receive my music considering I am not what is 'typical' in the industry there. So to those of you whom are my loyal and loving fans, please support me! I promise to do my best, and work hard to reach my goals and dreams in my home country! Keep me in your thoughts and know that I will be back to Korea for an amazing comeback once my brothers are out of the army, and ready to pursue 1TYM! Aja aja, FIGHTING! 1TYM 4 YOUR MIND!
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